Who am I that the Lord of ALL the earth...

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 20:32:10 GMT

Finally a day that is totally wicked witch free. We couldnt be happier. Thank Goodness.

So. Its Christmas Eve. yay Jesus.

I talked to some kid last night with Santa Claus crap all over their myspace. And asked them why they had it.......they said they were representing Christmas: Too bad thats not what its about at all.

Id be just as happy waking up tomorrow. being with my family. And friends that are as close as family.having no presents at all. and eating frosted flakes for breakfast........whats your reason for celebrating Christmas? Presents, or Celebrating The Birth of Jesus Christ?

Its not all about that obese man with a red suit on.

Rock that Kids.

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 03:52:17 GMT

I have neglected livejournal....................

oops.

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 02:08:44 GMT

i miss renee

benjamin is stupid

this is my update.....

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 02:41:42 GMT

Firsts
First best friend: Kelsey Baker
First real memory of something: Painting myself grey when i was little bc i wanted to be a sheep
First car: Baby Blue Taurus (fuck yeah)
First date: first REAL date...movies with Benjamin
First real "makeout" kiss: has yet to happen
First break-up: Benjamin
First job: has yet to happen lol
First screen name: Aniebrd007
First self purchased album: GREASE soundtrack (yeah....i liked Theatre even then)
First funeral: dunno
First pets: Bingo [dog]
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First credit card: lol psych
First true love: Love to me not being someone i dated....: Joseph Southall
First enemy: Mrs Paris. [ curse violin teachers ]
First big trip: Florida?

Lasts.
Last big car ride: um, Kortneys with Ginny
Last kiss:...........Benjamin
Last good cry: um, couple weeks ago on the Phone with Jonathan
Last library book checked out: um, only God knows
Last movie seen in theater: Exorcism of Emily Rose with my POSSE
Last beverage drank: coke

Last food consumed: Cheese Grits
Last crush: Nathan
Last phone call: Benjamin
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: Green chucks
Last cd played: TOMMY soundtrack
Last item bought: Some apple-butter
Last annoyance: Current: Benjamin
Last disappointment: Benjamin
Last time scolded: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dunno
Last shirt worn: TOMMY lol
Last website visited: Myspace

DESCRIBE
[x] The shoes you wore today: kelly green chuck taylors with writing of friends on them, and a smiley face band-aid that i found with Sir Jonathan Tucker, Benjamin Tucker, Alli Knighton, and Alli Reynolds on the bank of America steps in Charlottesville
[x] Your eyes: green/navy blue/yellow
[x] Your fears: snakes, being alone forever

DO YOU
[x] Smoke: i have
[x] Do you think you've been in love?: not sure
[x] Want to go to college: kinda
[x] Want to get married: yes
[x] Believe in yourself: sometimes
[x] Get motion sickness: not usually
[x] Think you're a health freak: kinda
[x] Get along with your parents: not usually
[x] Like thunderstorms: live for them
[x] Play an instrument: Flute, piano, guitar, violin

IN THE PAST MONTH DID YOU
[x] Go to the mall: YES!, i did with Kortney to Visit Sarah at work on Halloween
[x] Eat sushi: nope
[x] Dye your hair: ummm yeah i think so
[x] Steal anything: not that i can think of

HAVE YOU EVER
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: no
[x] Played a game that required removal of clothing?: nope
[x] liked playing monopoly? not really ...its kinda tedious
[x] Been called a tease: dunno
[x] Gotten beaten up ?: nope
[x] Been in a fight: verbally, yes....none physical
[x] Shoplifted: no

THE FUTURE
[x] Age you hope to be married: dunno...whenver it happens
[x] Numbers and Names of Children: 1 child, Girl - Mikayla Clara, Boy: Lyric Cassidy
[x] How do you want to die?: not sure...
[x] What country would you most like to visit?: Id go with GT and Say Australia...and not just to see the water in the toilet spin the opposit direction

NUMBER OF
[x] Number of kisses you've given: dunno
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: 2
[x] Number of CDs that I own: a lot
[x] Number of tattoos: nothing yet, black star on right wrist though
[x] Number of scars on my body: countless....shouldnt be that way, but it is

FAVORITES
[x] Shampoo: Herbel Essences
[x] Fav Color(s): green/black
[x] Day/Night: night
[x] Summer/Winter: winter
[x] Fave Food:...hmmm...not sure....
[x] Fave sport: swimming

RIGHT NOW
[x] Wearing: jeans that fall off my body, tommy shirt, and ginnys hoodie
[x] Drinking: noothing
[x] Thinking about: Benjamin
[x] Listening to: Switchfoot "Happy is a Yuppie Word"

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 19:36:22 GMT

shut the fuck up.

with your timeless hymns of memorandum

FUCK YOU

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 15:15:44 GMT

America....Fuck Yeah

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 15:14:22 GMT

America, Fuck Yeah

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 06:42:51 GMT

10 Years Ago:
1. I was starting kindergarten
2. Kelsey Baker was my best friend
3. I ate grass with Sally Craighill, because we thought we were cows
4. I didn't know what hate was
5. I did't know how to spell my name yet

5 Years Ago:
1. I was in 5th grade
2. The love of my life sat beside me in English class
3. My favorite color was pink
4. I played soccer announcers with Gentry on the playground
5. I left all my friends...

1 Year Ago:
1. I was a freshman
2. I met Jonathan Tucker
3. I started Tech Theatre
4. I met Marie Renee Elizabeth Beneteau
5. Midge became my method of survival

6 months ago:
1. I still ate meat
2. I cried
3. Renee was still in Lynchburg
4. I didn't know what to do with myself
5. I still hated school.......probably not as much as I do now...

Yesterday:
1. My hair looked really bad
2. I went to rehearsal
3. Doug pissed me off
4. It was Thursday
5. I drank some peach tea

5 Places I Would Run Away To:
1. Camp Hat Creek
2. Skippys place
3. CNU
4. Ali's House
5. Colorado

Bad Habits:
1. I've become so incredibly verbal
2. I eat too much
3. I worry too much about what I look like
4. I lie too much
5. I get attached to people that always go away.

Biggest Joys:
1. Hoodies
2. Josh
3. rain
4. Charles Maury Nuckols Jr.
5. Chuck Taylors

Favorite Toys:
1. CD's
2. Computer
3. Straightener of le hair
4. Sharpies
5. Telephones

Fictional Characters I Would Date:
1. Beast (In Human form, Beauty and the Beast)
2. Captain John Smith (Pochahontas)
3. Dean (Gilmore Girls)
4. Captain Jack Sparrow (Pirates of the Carribbean)
5. Gilbert ( Whats eating Gilbert Grape)

I cant wait to go to collge

fitter happier more productive

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 02:27:47 GMT

comfortable

not drinking too much

regular exercise at the gym (3 Days a week)

Getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries

at ease

eating well (no more microwave dinners and saturated fates)

a patient better driver

a safer car (baby smiling in backseat)

Sleeping well (no bad dreams)

no paranoia

careful to all animals (never washing spiders down the plughole)

keep in contact with old friends (enjoy a drink now and then)

Will frequently check credit at (moral) bank (hole in wall)

favours for favours

fond but not in love

charity standing orders

on sundays ring road supermarket

(no killing moths or putting boiling water on ants)

Car wash (also on sundays)

no longer afraid of the dark

or midday shadows

nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate

nothing so childish

at a better pace

slower and more calculated

no chance of escape

no self-employed

concerned (but powerless)

an empowers and informed member of society (pragmatism no idealism)

will not cry in public

less chance of illness

tyres that grip in the wet (shot of baby strapped in back seat)

a good memory

still cries at a good film

still kisses with saliva

no longer empty and frantic

like a cat

tied to a stick

that s driven into

frozen winter shit (the ability to laugh at weakness)

calm

fitter, healthier and more productive

a pig

in a cage

on antibiotics

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 02:09:51 GMT

Its getting harder and harder to hold on.....

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 01:40:15 GMT

I know exactly how you feel.You were this close to closing deals when everything fell from out your hands you were forced to decide on other plans, you figured it best to just ignore it, otherwise your only living for it. And if anyone ever wondered why you did it you swear theyd never know you sold your soul to the burning bridges....

You know exactly what i want so, I dont have to be so damn upfront. No matter the moment we decide to make our minds up, i know a man who may need a new assignment. To hand in his heart and take his last vacation, attempting to spoil imagination. If anyone ever wonders where he went. I wouldn't say the he spent his time driving over burning bridges...

Burning which is nothing more than a longing for being un-involved.

Desire can cause Heartattacks.

Desire, it wont bring you back....

You are my sweetest downfall, I left you far beneath the sheets of paper. I have to go....

Fuck It. No one knows how i really feel about it. - You're the only one i care about, you're the only one I love, the only one i miss. You're my life. My best friend. With you gone I don't know where to turn in life. What do i do, where do i go. Who do i run to. Whenever I call I get the answering machine, i dont know what to say. Come Home? You're not supposed to worry....I cant take care of myself. But you're not supposed to worry...I need someone to hold me. You're temporary replacement failed all the tests. His hug just isnt the same. There could never be a good replacement, because you're the only you. Starbucks trips are few, black coffee and cigarettes, i dont understand it. Why is life so hard now. Why was it so simple then. Everything has changed, i can't wait until this weekend. It's time to live again. Seeing you're face is all i need to get me through another week. Then i'll fall back into this....I keep myself busy, but when i slow down, all i think about is you, what we did, everything, ever, everytime you made me life,everytime you held me when I cried, you mean everything to me. Do you know that? Everything in the world. I Love you more than life itself.

What am i supposed to do without you. My flame is slowly growing faint. Its almost out, but i keep going for you, and only you.

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 01:09:24 GMT

Take the quiz: "Which sexy rock star is your lover?"

Gerard Way
Oh my Lord what a georgous man!!! AH just LOOK at him!!!

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 23:29:26 GMT

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 22:29:25 GMT

I've got headaches, and bad luck but they couldnt touch you...

Midge comes home in 1 week, and 5 days.....

I dont know when i'll see Skippy again, haven't talked to him in awhile...

Benjamin and I were supposed to hang out pretty much the entire weekend. I haven't seen him. Hes grounded

Things are going around that aren't true. And they worry me. I dont understand.

I miss Renee.....

fuck it

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 05:25:49 GMT

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone.There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus girl. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I've become hatefull towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Only because i love and feel sorry for people too much i guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning nauseaus stomach for your concern during the past years. Im too much of an erratic, moody baby! I just dont have the passion anymore. So remember, its better to burn out than to fade away. Peace, Love, Empathy.

Life will be so much happier without me. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU.

That about sums it up.

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 01:42:48 GMT

Sooooo, worked from 3 to 8...working from 10 pm to ....probably 2 am....eh. whatev.

Nutcracker tomorrow at 1.

Springer and Tony are my new Best friends.

And Stallings GF is the shit

Annnnd im getting 50 bucks

And i Saw Jeff Jackson

It isnt a fashion trend, its a fucking death wish....

Whatever.

Give me two shots to the back of the head.

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 18:17:16 GMT

Your life will never be the same on your mothers eyes say a prayer.

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 21:33:11 GMT

I dont really know what to say.

To those who think they own the world, think again, look around, realize you're pathetic in your ways, realize that I, being the unpopular, see you as scum, i see you as nothing. If only you could realize what you're doing to yourselves.....Im praying for you.

Addie, thankyou for these CD's they have made my day much better, they're making me call, when all i want to do is punch in walls.

Jesus, come and walk the halls of this house, shed this place, and turn it inside out with your mercy. Jesus, teach us the prayers that open these doors. Let your truth be on our steps, and in these rooms.

Learn to respect yourselves. Put your faith in something.

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 02:16:59 GMT

List five songs that you are currently 'digging'. It doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good. But they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your five songs:

1. "Satisfy Me" - Jonathan Tucker (I miss you)
2. "Wash Me Clean" - Zack White
3. "Light of the World"
4. "Im not Okay" - My Chemical Romance
5. "I slept with someone in Fall Out Boy and All i got was this Stupid Song Written about me" - Fall Out Boy

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I hope everyone knows that even though im incredibly sarcastic ALL the time, that i dont mean any mean things i say to you. I try not to say many mean things at all, im just not like that, so if i ever do, please tell me. I want to know. - Theres 4 Amazing people in my life that I want to thank from the bottom of my heart for listening to me blabble about people i miss and people i love and my best friends - You 4 are my family, I hope you know that, And you know who you are. Just know that I love you, and whenever anything happens, i'll always be there for you, no matter what. - There's some things that i can comprehend here. I'll sit and think for hours about the zillion times i've said i love you to some random person. But those 3 words mean so much to me. How could I overuse them?

Im a fish.

YGC - UNITED.

Next week, Pal Park, YGC - Im there.

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 00:39:00 GMT

God how can I do anything for you? Everything I have comes from you.
God you are everything, and God, I am nothing without you.
You can do everything you do, without me.
So why do you choose to use a little girl like me?
What Could I ever do, for you that you could not do without me. I can bring nothing to you that was not first given to me by you. All that is in me Lord is you, and the rest is all that I am. Lord you dont need me, you dont need what I am. I am nothing.

I am nothing before you. I am nothing without you. Im just a little girl before you, asking you, to forgive her for the things shes done here in this world. To give her the strength to go on and do the things you call her to.

SHOW ME WHAT I SHOULD BE

And I will do it for you.

Give me the strength to go on and do the things you call me to.

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GET TO WORK: You arent being payed to believe in the power of your dreams.

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BRACE YOURSELF: They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone. But for what we've become? We just feel more alone. Always weigh what you've lost against what you've left. Progress report: IM MISSING YOU TO DEATH.

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 23:09:07 GMT

Friends of Hollerville:

I hope your having wonderful lives. Im going out with Miss Beneteau later on. Yes, i believe that i will jump on her.

They call me Fiddy-one Cents. I should rock your world. And if i dont, then you have a problem.

ADVERSITY: That which does not kill me postpones the inevitable

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 21:51:49 GMT

Sara Olivia Case is my sexual lover. I want to jump her bones. She has a sexy hat. I love her.

I got a sweet hat. I got some sweet jeans.

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 17:18:02 GMT

The game last night was SUPER fun. Especially since JOSEPH EDWARD SOUTHALL WAS THERE!!! And all my lovies as well. Katie Straightened my hair. I liked it a lot. RENEE IS HERE. EXCEPT I DONT REMEMBER HER PHONE NUMBER. IM GOING TO DIE IF SHE DOESNT CALL ME!!! SO SOMEONE TELL HER THAT. OR LEAVE HER PHONE NUMBER.And. ummm. Yeah. Now im going to the mall with Sara. I love that kid - We rock this world.

But not as much as you rock mine.

peace, love, empathy

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 22:49:28 GMT

Today is the Third Day of Annies fast - And the Last.

Today Annie Had a wonderful day at school

Today Annie Got her hair cut. its pretty.

TODAY ANNIE TALKED TO JONATHAN TUCKER. I LOVE YOU. AND I MISSED YOU.

Today Annie saw Josh, who looks like Benjamin, he is my best friend. and I love Josh, a lot.

Today was yummy. I give it an overall approval of .....YAY

I GOT SOUL BUT IM NOT A SOLDIER

SCHOOL

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 22:32:05 GMT

My day was....

ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL!

So many exciting adventures.

Well I <3 Mr. Albon, he talks like Johnny Depp - Mrs Nelson doesn't seem like she'll be that bad. - Lukanich is My hero, He makes me laugh - Gym will be interesting, THIS DUDE LOOKS LIKE BENJAMIN IN THERE, totally freaked him out - Tech was Super, it'll be REALLY fun - Lunch was good too, i was SO hungry, - Spanish I just sat there but the teacher seems REALLY nice - and Bio II, Mrs. Westall seems Really cool and mellow. :) Can't wait to get into things.

You pessimistic people are pathetic.

DONT WORRY. BE HAPPY.